Sunday, September 21, 2025

Cail Mass: Ego part 1

 

Hello and welcome all!


If you have any questions or comments, please wait 

until the end and I'll be happy to discuss further!

Today is the first part in a series of three scheduled

masses. During this series we are going to delve into

the subject of ego.

Let's talk a little bit about what ego is. I'm sure 

you've heard about it. I'm sure you've heard people

talking about the problems thatthe ego can cause 

for you. You've probably heard about ego death. 

You've probably heard about both positive and

negative sides of ego. So let's talk about ego 

and specifically let's talk about how you can 

understand this concept and relate it to success

and personal development. How to get more success 

in your life by understanding ego. All right. So 

what is ego? Ego is basically that aspect of 

yourself that you consider you. So that is when 

I say "you" and I say your name and you think 

"yeah that's me". That is ego. Ego is basically your 

self-image of who you are. So ego is a complex 

construct in your mind. It's sitting both at the 

conscious and very very deep subconscious level. 

So ego is that "I" that you think you are. It's 

the thoughts and the emotions that you are 

identified with. It's the beliefs that you think 

are rock solid and completely true. It's what you 

think reality is like. It is a very big and deep

construct. It's like a gigantic iceberg and 

JUST THE TIP of it like, the 10% of it, is sticking 

out of the water and the other 90% are all submerged.

Really, you don't know what they are. It's just 

operating. It's just working. So the ego, the 

fundamental thing it does, is that it separates 

itself from everything else that's out in the

world. So if you're coming from the ego, and 

this is 99.999% of aislings, including myself, 

is what you do is you say "Okay, this is me and 

everything else you look at as not you", right? 

That desk is not you. That other person is not 

you. Medenia is not you. So you are very distinct. 

You are just your mind and your body. This skin 

that you've got and everything beyond your skin 

is something else. So you have that very clear 

separation. This is something that you get as 

an aisling who needs to survive and depends on 

survival and reproduction. And so we as a species

and really every living creature has a sense 

of this, this sense of "I"ness, the sense of 

"this is me". This is what's really really 

important and the other stuff, not so important.

Sure, you can love your spouse and you can love 

your kids and you can love the business that you 

built. You can even love your hp/mp or your 

goldbars, but there's still a big difference 

between that and really being identified with

yourself. So the ego is that identification 

with yourself. Now, why are we even talking 

about ego? What's the big deal? Okay, so it 

seems that this is kind of an intuitive notion. 

Well, the problem there is that the ego is very

clingy, the ego is very self-preservational, so 

what it does, especially if you're trying to get 

to higher levels of achievement, success or 

consciousness in your life, is that the ego 

tends to hold you back because it's got a lot

of inertia and weight to it. It doesn't always

want to go out there and explore reality for 

what it really is because what's happened is 

that ego has been built up regardless of how 

attached you are to yourself right now. The 

fact is that you and your notion of you is 

highly, highly illusory and fictious. I know 

you don't want to hear that and I don't want 

to hear it either. The ego doesn't want to 

hear it, but it's a very arbitrary way in 

which the ego came about. It just came about 

through the experiences that you had in your 

early childhood and then early adulthood, all 

the way up to now. Every experience that you 

had through your whole life, from birth to this

current double-moon, this current day, has added

something to your ego. It's created this giant 

yarn ball of all these different strands, all 

tightly interwoven. It's like an object. It's like 

a thing. It's got its own mass to it. It's hard to

recognize that. It's hard to go in there and pull 

a strand out and create something actually useful 

out of it. So that's what a lot of personal 

development is about. It's about working with 

your ego. Because if your ego is too big, and 

that's what we say when we say "This aisling has a 

really big ego". What does that usually mean? That

means, yeah, he's kind of a he's a jackass, he's 

stubborn, he's not open-minded, right? That's 

kind of what it is, but that's very surface level 

understanding of ego. A much deeper understanding 

of ego is that you've got these beliefs and you've 

got this big network, this ball of yarn that is 

responsible for all your behaviors, all your actions,

all your beliefs, all your thoughts. 

This is a very arbitrary thing.


Alright, this concludes today's session

about ego. I hope you've enjoyed it and 

we will see you next week for the second

part of this series.

Now let's all praise Cail together.

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